Sunday, March 30, 2008

sick

yeah. i know it'll sound pretty pathetic..but it's how i feel ryt now.. it's something i can't control..sawang-sawa na 'ko.. i'm sick and tired of being left behind..1st my mom..it was alryt.. if it didn't happened again and again(and well, you got the point) as if it's a routine i can't live w/o..i'm not talking about you.don't ya worry..(you=someone.you know who u r.haha!).. sometimes i think i was born to be left. now i'm actually worried to be attached to someone, afraid that it might happen again..but yup,i know i have to accept it. nothing's permanent..moving on is really the answer..



leaving the topic behind, i'll go talk about "you" again.. haha!!.. so.. you're trying to ignore me,huh?.. yes..it hurts.. but what can i do? i don't chase unworthy people around just to be remembered if i know i didn't do anything wrong ..i don't stick myself to someone who doesn't need me.. i won't bother you anymore. thank me. haha!..i think i'm already hating you.. but no.. it's not ryt.. hehe.. but please. i'm on the process of forgetting you.. so don't make papansin..HAHA..don't make a scene to be noticed and just ignore me if i did notice you and acknowledge your presence.. coz it just annoys me even more.. i'll get a life.. get yours.. hehe.. gudbye..this time i know i'm not left.. i just don't want to go chase you..

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

ouch

...As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me -- there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold.”

Saturday, March 1, 2008

yep. he's the reason... (HAHA)

________ looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see



That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without



Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so **** funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night



[Chorus:]



He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do



____________ walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause



[Repeat Chorus]



So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight



He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..



____________ looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see

weirdness everywhere.. ingat kayo..

i just received a txt msj..
super weird.. we've talked about it with my classmates but i ddn't know it was real. i thot it was just a made-up story.. i don't know.. they say there's a cult roaming around marbel(i don't know.maybe around south cot or even mindanao!wah).. reports say that a number of kids got lost.witnesses say that suspects grab the children and take them inside a van..the plate number is even reconized! #VMM 507..tsk3x.. you think you've heard the weirdest part of the news? nope. the latest msj i've read is that a kid was found lifeless at the grand terminal in tacurong just a whie ago. with EYES and VITAL ORGANS MISSING!!. another puzzling thing is that he holds 5000 bucks.. gosh.. what's happening...???.. i don't hold evidences that it's true but it's not a lost if we take extra care of ourselves.. be cautious everyone.. who knows-----

Thursday, February 28, 2008

the 29th

it's the end of feb.. our graduation's fast approaching!! huhu..
we. not that i'm motivated in making this post ryt now. i'm actualy starving  and i'l just make this fast.. haha..
i made a post today because it's a not-so-ordinary-day today. hehe. it comes once in four years! so i realized   if i don't make a post ryt now, i woud wait for another 4 yrs ti i could get to post on the 29th of feb.. bwaha. i know i dn't make any sense at all. haha. forgive me.,.

eniweys.. i didn't had a very good day.. i got jealous.. eeeng!.. haha.. i didn't rili smiled a lot today.. woosh..
setting: at our campus field. P.E class.. blablabla.. ouch.. haha. dat's ol..

oh. i remember.. today's the birthday of our adviser in 6th grade.. haha.. hapi brthday to u..

dat's about all.. haha. this is my most senseless post(as if others have sense.haha)

let's eat..

ouch

the most excruciating song i've heard..





We had the right love
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside

I wouldn't have you for a long time



Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're
calling you away
I have no right to make you stay



But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It
doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart
of yours
Will come to see
That you belong with me



Sometimes good-byes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone

I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can

You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home



And somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It
doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart
of yours
Will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go is just
another way to say
I'll always love you so



We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun

Maybe the best is yet to come
'Cause



Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't
really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of
yours
Will come to see
That you belong
With me

Thursday, February 21, 2008

waking up..

I don't want to hate you (but I do)



I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to be mad,
I feel like I should love you,
Because you are my _______.

I hate the way I feel,
When I look at you now,
I want an end to my guilt
But my heart just won't allow

Me to forget
The pain you've put me through.
I wish I could overlook this,
And start over anew.

And there is still something,
That is holding me back,
Being able to trust you
Is something I still lack.

Maybe if I told you,
Exactly how I feel,
It would make this better,
Make it seem less real.

I feel like you betrayed me,
Like you stabbed me in the heart,
I feel like you ignored me
And just tore my life apart.

I resent your poor decision
And that you followed it through,
I don't want to hate you
But _________; I still do.

a tour to dreamland---bwahaha

Glad my big bro's around



I am so glad my big bro's around ,
he's such good fun to have about.
When I am down he makes me laugh ,
makes me forget that I wanted to scream and shout.
He's not led an honest and straight life ,
been in trouble a few times and served some time.
No he's not a murderer or has he hurt another ,
just a petty thief doing the odd small crime.
The rest of the family turnt their backs on him ,
but to stand by big bro I'll always do.
For now he's living with my family again ,
and I am happy that he is it's true.
Now that I work all day I don't know what I'd do without him ,
he does not mind helping out and making things easier for me.
I have had my fair share of problems and worries lately ,
he may not be able to take them away but there for me he said he'll always be.
He is great with the kids too and they love him to bits ,
so that is why I am gald my big bro is around.
He cheers me up when I am feeling down ,
and keeps my feet well and truely on the ground.

Monday, February 18, 2008

it's a date

yeah. a date with myself.. boohoo.. today's really a not-so-interesting day but i just missed blog making.. hehe..

anywayz,.. my day started good.. huraAy.. my dad woke me up with a warm smile. i ate my cereal without any ant on it(it's actually a miracle for me.haha). it's tuesday but we don't have classes coz of the NSPC event they're holding here. (it's another huray for a student lyk me. hehe.) i planned to sleep for the whole day. "this is lyf"-i thought to myslf.. haha..at last m in the four corners of my room. lying comfortably on my bed. i could feel the cool breeze outside with my window opened.. i turned on the radio. and i found my guitar(there goes my sleeping plan.hehe).. it's great day. i have all the time in the world just playing my guitar or do anything i want to..i was enjoying myself when suddenly my wicked brother knocked at my door like he's gonna destroy it..i have no choice.i opened it.he 'borrowed' my guitar and told me to do some stuffs that was supposed to be his job!..and my day is ruined thanks to him! grrr. hu ever started d rule that big bros have to be obeyed, thank you so much..

there it goes. after i've done what he told me, i decided to go out. i bought something from the mall. i thought of eating but the food court's so filled with poeple. i looked at what's on cinemas and i found one interesting movie.. so i went up to buy myself a ticket but the ticket lady(whatever you call her)refused to give me a ticket! guess what, it's damned rated-18.. grr.

so i went out.. walked around.. and i found myslef near DD's so i bought myself a wacko and continued walking... i saw NSPC delegates from other places roaming around the city.. and lucky me, some one stepped on my foot! grr.. yes he said sorry butit goes lyk this:"sorry PO" --ano dw??PO?!,. do i look that old?!! i wish he was the ticket lady so i could've watched the damned movie..

now i ended up sitting infront of this computer.writing this senseless blog.. haha..

Friday, January 18, 2008

where are you??hope to see you..

We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me; you've got my back
It's so good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground

You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again

True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the thing you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in


A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
Pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

'nostalgic'

here i am again in these four walls of my room



thinking of you, thinking of us..thinkin of our past..



#



i wish on every falling star i see



that our roads'll cross again



'coz wherever you go..



a piece of me goes with you..





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wherever you are right now



i hope that you're thinkin of me too



coz wherever you are right now



this heart of mine still belongs to you..







how could i ever let you escape my mind



when my heart disagrees



no matter how hard i tried to hide it



i can't deny that i miss you



i miss miss you, i miss you, i miss you



i miss you..



#,*,*



i'm hating this feeling..



it's hurting me so..



nostalgic..